What do you do when you feel completely misunderstood and you see a wave of public sentiment turning more sour on your diagnoses with every passing day?
There is an online person who will remain anonymous, currently in a manic episode that needs intervention. Mania often needs hospitalization to get the meds balanced as fast as possible. But even if she doesn’t get intervention, it’ll still resolve on its own, even though it will take a lot longer to get there. The concern is always how much damage a person can do to their life in the time before the comedown.
Mania is exhausting; there’s just so much going on. You believe fantastical things, and they are so purely true. You feel enlightened, like you just learned the secret to living a perfect life. Everything is so clear and right and true, and you wrap it all around yourself like a blanket and move forward with whatever plans you may have to make your idea a reality. You can make or do or accomplish absolutely anything
The truly unfortunate thing about mania or hypomania is the damage you do without being aware that you did it. It just makes you look like an asshole and then you can’t even explain what you meant to say or do, and then it just sounds like an excuse to be an asshole.
Bipolar and borderline personality disorder do not only create bad people. Some people are just bad people, regardless of illness.
The moods from bipolar (BP) or borderline personality disorder (BPD) are almost unbearable in intensity. You know that feeling at the top of a roller coaster when your stomach drops out? That happens to me all the time, prompted by my emotions. Physically. And instead of screaming out, I’m expected to act acceptably and not even yelp.
Having bipolar (BP) or borderline personality disorder (BPD) does not make you a bad person. If you’re a bad person, your mental illness is not the complete explanation for why you are the way you are.
Right now, it’s fashionable to blame all bad behavior on mental illness, and that is a BAD thing. The disabled do not need more prejudices against their disorders. Please don’t discount us. We are real people who can be kind, loving, creative, supportive, and loyal friends and partners. Borderline (BPD) is very intense, but we can make very empathetic loved ones. And bipolar (BP) can be managed with medication and therapy. It’s not easy, but it can definitely be done.
I ask that you not blame all bad traits you see in others on mental illness. And take pause when you hear or see someone else ascribing labels to people they do not know. I don’t want “bipolar” or “borderline” to become catch-all explanations for someone’s bad behavior.