We’re Not Bad, Just Problematic

What do you do when you feel completely misunderstood and you see a wave of public sentiment turning more sour on your diagnoses with every passing day?

An online person who will remain anonymous is in a manic episode that needs intervention, but even if she doesn’t get intervention, it’ll resolve on its own, even though it will take a lot longer to get there. The concern is in how much damage a person can do to their life in the time before the comedown.

Mania is exhausting, there’s just so much going on. You believe fantastical things, and in the moment, they are so purely true. You feel enlightened, like you just learned the secret to living a good life.

Everything is so clear and right and true, and you wrap it around yourself like a blanket and move forward with whatever plans you may have to make your idea a reality. You can make or do or accomplish absolutely anything.

The truly unfortunate thing about mania or hypomania is the damage you do without being aware that you did it. It just makes you look like an asshole and then you can’t even explain what you meant to say or do, and then it just sounds like an excuse to be an asshole.

Bipolar and borderline personality disorder do not only create bad people. Some people are just bad people, regardless of reason.

Whether the moods are from bipolar (BP) or borderline personality disorder (BPD), they are almost unbearable in intensity. You know that feeling in your gut as you speed up and fall from the top of a roller coaster when your stomach drops out? That happens to me. Physically. And instead of screaming out, I’m expected to be acceptable and not even yelp.

Having bipolar (BP) or borderline personality disorder (BPD) does not make you a bad person. And if you’ are a bad person, your mental illness is not the complete explanation for why you are the way you are.

Borderline (BPD)e is very intense, but we can make very loyal friends, lovers, and partners.

Please don’t discount us as real people who can be kind, loving, creative, supportive and loyal friends and partners.

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